Control

     As most of you know I am a control freak to an extent that I am having a lot of anxiety about leaving for the next three days. Who can care for my babies as well as I do if they are sick, if one gets hurt especially Austin, who can cheer them on at their games this weekend, homework, etc? I know Shawn is a great loving father as he is a husband, but I still have issues with him taking full reign of the house and kids, why, I do not know. I felt the same way last year when I left to go away for a weekend for the first time since SaraAn was born. Everything worked out just fine so I should not worry, but I do.
    I am leaving tonight for a spritiual "walk" as you can call it, not many details given except that just bring comfy clothes and leave phone, watch, and all worries behind. WHAT??? My phone, worries, my lifeline even if it is just to check in and make sure all is fine. Shawn went on this journey in the fall and he cannot wait for me to get back in hopes this will calm a lot of my fears and become closer to God in an extraordinary way. I will leave here tonight with some panic thinking I am forgetting something even though I have made myself a check list and have been marking off everything as I do it today in hopes to make the ride a little smoother for Shawn for getting the kids to school, picking them up, their activites, and Austin's FIRST sleepover birthday party tomorrow night. I made it so easy for him, laid everything out, labeled everything, put things in envelopes, washed all bball uniforms for games, etc. Hopefully I can calm my fears and be able to enjoy this time away and get everything out of it I am led to receive.
     Well, my checklist is not getting done if I am here blogging so I will be back on Sunday night and will share my experiences. Please God take away all my anxiety about being away and keep my babies safe and well the next three days till my return.