Where to begin?

 I have been inspired by a fellow friend who has her own blog to try this out,more so to have an outlet (as if I have nothing better to do), but for myself and for others who might feel like I do somedays. Most days I end my day/night (get them confused due to working graveyard) feeling just plain BLAH!! Leave it to just being tired, stressed, or just confused with life. I try each day to find the positives with life, but a lot of negative gets in the way. I know most people look at me and hear my story especially about my three wonderful children and wonder why I have not had myself committed.  I have to keep it into perspective that there is a reason why God gave me such responsibility to handle the needs of three very different "special" children. I have also been blessed with a wonderful husband and daddy for over 11 years now to fight the battle with me even though we do have our differences with a lot of things. A lot of marriages would of ended by now if in our shoes most days. As I experiment with this new way of journaling as I will call it, I am listening to my little fighter SaraAn laughing, who is the most tempermental little one I think I have ever come across as she plays with her friend Rudy our dog. while laughing she begins a coughing spell that brings me to one of my hardest parts of the day and that is telling her she needs a breathing treatment before bed so she is not up all night. After this I am quickly reminded why my life is exhausting sometimes.